So, today I did a few special things while driving around!

1) I drove on Fair Oaks Blvd for a few minutes. It was my first "busy" street. It's nothing like Greenback or Hazel, but it was indeed busy.

2) I went on an actual errand type of thing, like a real trip with a real destination. I went from Leanne's house down Trajan to Central, to Beech, across Greenback to the Orangevale library. I even parked all by myself.

3) I parked all by myself in a real parking lot with other cars around! And it was pretty stinking near perfect! I didn't have to adjust or anything. It was great!

5) I created and drove my own route home from the Orangevale library. I went down Beech to Pershing, across Hazel, and down Pecan.

6) I had a passenger in the car who was not related to me and who was not teaching me. Ryan went with us to the library and so he got to see me drive. And he freaked out way more than was necessary. I think it actually calmed me down to have someone freaking out about my driving more than I was. Weird...is this how Wes, Sherry, and Emily feel when I work with them? They always say I'm relaxing when I am totally the opposite of that to myself. Something to think about...

Yeah, so that was how my day of driving went. I'm starting to force myself to relax a little while driving and am finding it's more enjoyable than I first thought...or I'm getting addicted to the adrenaline. I can't tell which XD

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"Jesus said, "You're asking the wrong question. You're looking for someone to blame. There is no such cause-effect here. Look instead for what God can do. We need to be energetically at work for the One who sent me here, working while the sun shines." - John 9 (The Message)

This was in reference to the people asking Jesus why a certain man was blind. He said basically that they were not seeing the whole picture and that there was more to that man's blindness than meets the eye. In this case, the man was blind so that Jesus could show his power through him.

I look at my life now and I see things that I could easily blame on others. Things I have to deal with, things I have dealt with that come back to haunt me, things I don't want to deal with, and things that just seem unfair. Some of it even has distinct places I could lay the blame. I could say it's so-and-so's fault that this is happening or that I have to deal with that.

But there might be more that I miss if I stop at the blame game. Another version of this verse says "It was not because of his sins or his parents’ sins," Jesus answered. "This happened so the power of God could be seen in him." (John 9:3 NLT). Maybe that's the point. Maybe I haven't been looking far enough before. Maybe the point was that God can take it all and show His power through it. Maybe that's the point of everything we, as Christians, go through. I think it is, because no matter if it was someone's sins that cause something, I don't want to miss out on allowing God to bring Himself glory through EVERY part of my life, the good and the bad. I know He can.

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I love this song. It's one of my favorites.

"You Are Being Loved" by Steven Curtis Chapman

You Are Being Loved
by Steven Curtis Chapman

So you think
Love is only for the good enough
And one thing
You're never gonna be worthy of
But there's a song
Being sung over you
By the One who
Breathed life into you

You are being loved
You are being loved
Right now, at this very moment
You are being loved
You are being loved
Right now, you are being
Loved, loved, loved
You are being loved, loved
You are

You ought to see
The smile you're bringing to your Father's face
You ought to hear
Him sing His version of Amazing Grace
'Cause that's the song
Being sung over you
By the God who
Breathes life into you

You are being loved
You are being loved
Right now, at this very moment
You are being loved
You are being loved
Right now, you are being
Loved, loved, loved
You are being loved, loved
You are

With every breath that you're taking
And every beat of your heart
Even while this song is playing
Whatever you do, wherever you are

There's a song
Being sung over you

You are being loved
You are being loved
Right now, at this very moment
You are being loved
You are being loved
Right now, you are being
Loved, loved, loved
You are being loved, loved
You are
You are loved, loved, loved
You are being loved, loved
You are

You are being
You are being
You are being loved

You are being
You are being
You are being loved right now

(There's a song being sung over you)
(There's a song being sung over you)
(There's a song being sung over you)
(There's a song being sung over you)

You are being loved
You are being loved
You are being loved
You are being loved

You are being loved
You are being loved
You are being loved
You are being loved
Right now

(There's a song being sung over you)
(There's a song being sung over you)
(There's a song being sung over you)
(There's a song being sung over you)
Right now

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So, I've been keeping up with Ragamuffin Soul and the blog writer, Carlos Whittaker, released a new EP today! So, I'm just asking if you'll take a few minutes and check it out...maybe buy it...and fall in love with his music...thanks!

Buy Carlos Whittaker EP on iTunes

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I love this song.

"Safe" by Natalie Grant

Safe
by Natalie Grant

How did you know
That I'm all alone today?
Oh, I feel so scared
And I wanna go away
I bleed so deep underneath
My soul is screaming

I'm not gonna hide
I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars
And show You every mistake
Your Love is mending my blisters
And the bruising shame
Here with You, I am safe

Drowning the tears
Won't make it go away
It's robbing my soul
So I'm taking this mask
Off my face, yeah
To discover love and uncover all it means
To live and breathe

I'm not gonna hide
I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars
And show You every mistake
Your Love is mending my blisters
And the bruising shame
Here with You, I am safe, I am safe
I am safe, I am safe

When You uncovered, I discovered
I am not afraid
But when we're hiding
We end up fighting
To be sane

Yeah!

I'm not gonna hide
I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars
And show You every mistake
Your Love is mending my blisters
And my bruising shame
Here with You, I am safe, I am safe
I am safe, I am safe

I am safe

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I just heard about this song from Wes, and I think it's going to be a favorite of mine! I love it! Sorry about the bad audio quality, this is the best I could find.

"Smellin' Coffee" by Chris Rice

Smellin' Coffee
by Chris Rice

Last thing I remember
Sayin' bye to yesterday
Glad to see it over
Pullin' covers over my head
But what were You doin'
While I dreamt the night away?
'Cause I can tell that something's different
And my eyes ain't even open yet

I'm smellin' coffee
Birds are singin' just outside
Here comes Your mercy
Streamin' in with the mornin' light
My heart's a racin'
Wakin' up to Your smile
And it's a good mornin'
It's a good mornin'

I remember readin'
You're the God who never sleeps
And while I've been dreamin'
You've been singin' over me
Singin' about my freedom
Wakin' me up to hear Your song
Now I can't dance hard enough
'Cause yesterday is gone, gone, gone!

I'm smellin' coffee
Birds are singin' just outside
Here comes Your mercy
Streamin' in with the mornin' light
My heart's a racin'
Wakin' up to Your smile
And it's a good mornin'
It's a good mornin'

Every little breath and heartbeat
Is a gift of love that You give to me
You keep givin' even when I sleep
'Cause I know You never stop watchin' over me
I wake up, my past is gone
'Cause Your mercy's new with the mornin' sun
I'm forgiven, I'm free, it's a brand new day
'Cause Your faithfulness is the greatest, hey!

I'm smellin' coffee
Birds are singin' just outside
Here comes Your mercy
Streamin' in with the mornin' light
My heart's a racin'
Wakin' up to Your smile

I'm smellin' coffee
Birds are singin' just outside
Here comes Your mercy
Streamin' in with the mornin' light
My heart's a racin'
Wakin' up to Your smile
And it's a good mornin'
It's a good mornin'
Good mornin'
It's a good mornin'

Good mornin'
(It's a gift of love that You give to me)
Good mornin'
(I know You never stop watchin' over me)
Good mornin'
(I wake up, my past is gone
Your mercy's new with the mornin' sun)
Good mornin'
(I'm forgiven, I'm free, it's a brand new day
'Cause Your faithfulness is the greatest, hey!)

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"For the Moments I Feel Faint" by Relient K

For the Moments I Feel Faint
by Relient K

Am I at the point
Of no improvement?
What of the death
I still dwell in?
I try to excel
But I feel no movement
Can I be free
Of this unreleasable sin?

Never underestimate my Jesus
You're telling me that there's no hope
I'm telling you you're wrong
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong

I throw up my hands
Oh, the impossibilities
Frustrated and tired
Where do I go from here?
Now I'm searching for
The confidence I've lost so willingly
Overcoming these obstacles
Is overcoming my fears

Never underestimate my Jesus
You're telling me that there's no hope
I'm telling you you're wrong
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong

I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think You can, I think You can
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think You can, I think You can

Gather my insufficiencies and
Place them in Your hands
Place them in Your hands
Place them in Your hands

Never underestimate my Jesus
You're telling me that there's no hope
I'm telling you you're wrong
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong

Never underestimate my Jesus
You're telling me that there's no hope
I'm telling you you're wrong
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong
He will be strong
He will be strong
He will be strong

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So...today was my first day of school for this semester. Here's kinda how it went.

English - I really like this teacher. He's pretty cool. I think I'm going to learn a lot in that class and that it won't be as bad as most English classes are.

Statistics - This teacher is HILARIOUS! When he first started talking, I thought he was really intimidating, but very soon it became apparent that he was just joking around. He had the whole class laughing and was teaching in a very interesting and simple way. I am excited about this class.

Boot Camp Fitness - Hell on earth would be a better name. I just went and dropped it. I literally couldn't even make it through the warm-ups. Since I don't need the class, and other people probably want it, I dropped so someone else could have it. I don't care about my pride or dignity, it's impossible. Good riddance!

Well, that was my first day. (By the way, it's super nice to write about something and have some sort of excitement about it. I am feeling loads better today and pretty near normal. I am way thankful for that! These past few days have been miserable, so feeling like I am today is amazing.)

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Tears that refuse to fall, cries that refuse to be heard, prayers that refuse to be prayed, songs that refuse to be sung, rest that refuses to relieve, pain that refuses to be comforted, love that refuses to be felt, darkness that refuses to abate, expectations that refuse to bring excitement, truth that refuses to break through, cold that refuses to be warmed, light that refuses to shine, joy that refuses to bring a smile, faith that refuses to bring hope...

And I have to keep living...

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This video is absolutely amazing!

"Everlasting God" by Lincoln Brewster

Everlasting God
by Lincoln Brewster

Strength will rise as we
Wait upon the Lord
Wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
Strength will rise as we
Wait upon the Lord
Wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord

Our God
You reign forever
Our hope
Our strong deliverer

You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint
You won't grow weary
You're the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings like eagles

Strength will rise as we
Wait upon the Lord
Wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
Strength will rise as we
Wait upon the Lord
Wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord

Our God
You reign forever
Our hope
Our strong deliverer

You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint
You won't grow weary
You're the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings like eagles

You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
The everlasting God
The everlasting

Strength will rise as we
Wait upon the Lord
Wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
Strength will rise as we
Wait upon the Lord
Wait upon the Lord
Wait upon the Lord

You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
I will wait upon the Lord
Rise up with wings like eagles

Speaking:
The Lord is the everlasting God, the creator of all the earth. He never grows weak or weary. No one can measure the depths of his understanding. He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. Even youth will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion, but those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:28-31)

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